| ( i know its typical or cliche to write about the depressing life we lead in these blogs, but i must let it all out!) soo just excuse all the vulgarity and just whatever....
aaah this year.........I HATE 2005! it started off well, really it did, then it just went downhill. ill look back when im older and ill be like ooooh yeah 2005, half of my junior year and the other half my senior year. goddamnit, that was the year of pure tortured hell! everything was going fine until around april or may. i was getting really stressed by school, problems with this one guy , and i was getting highly irritated by my own parents. they were always nagging me to get a job or other shit i dont want to get into. soo in late may, my grandma, who i loved very much passed away. she was batteling altzhimers for 2 years or so. so it was her time to go. i was really emotional about that. about a week after her funeral, in june, i had to go the hospital one early sunday mourning and i had to get a appendicitis (remember: this was the week before finals with all the studying and reviewing) i freaked and thought that was bad. i had to miss that week of school. then finals happend, and this is what happend to me...... i had an infection of where they took my appendix out, so i was drugged up on antibiotics and my docter restricted me from school till that following thursday (the last day of fucking school!!!) soo i was cramming in all this random shit. i had to take three test, make one lamp, write 2 essays, write a 6 page paper about the kennedy assasination and take a test on the vietnam war. so it was pretty exausting. after school was over, i just relaxed, then my trip happend, which was actually some good times. then i came home..........my parents nagging me to get a job, my dog got sick and now shes on a restricted diet, and just 2 weeks ago, my brother fell 40 foot cliff into water and smashed his skull against 2 boulders and so he fractured his skull and his vertebrai. luckily he didnt injur the part of the vertabrai that makes you paralized. so hes home, but we cant leave him alone, just incase something could happen to him. he has to wear a neck brace for 7 weeks and he now has a huge scar on the right side of his head of where they put the metal plates in. im just sooooo thankful hes still alive a breathing! while chris was in the hospital, i accidentally gave myself a black eye, but we wont get into that. i had to reschedule my senior portraits (which my parents werent very pleased about). my parents thought i was angry/emotional because chris was getting all the attention which the biggest pile of shit there is. so my mom and i had this deep converstaion at chili's the other night and i told her that i wasnt angry, i was getting a little down with everything going on. more shit has been going on, but its too hard to explain. but today i gave myself a really big burn on the left side of my face and it looks like ive been punched and abused. soooooo now im here with a big red mark on my face, i dont want to get into it.
but you know what, we still have august, september, october, november, december and then 2006! maybe that will be my year!
g'night
jen
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